Giving Him Space
"After my last two breakups, both my significant others wanted me to give them space. I didn’t, and still don’t, understand what that means. I know that when I sit on the subway, and someone sits next to me, I give that person more space by moving my belongings, holding them tighter to me, crossing my arms and legs - in effect making myself smaller. When my exes told me they needed space, I did only what I knew. I made myself smaller, less of a burden, less noticeable, less of everything.
It felt like the sorrow of losing a loved one. I felt like they died, they were my ghosts, or I was turning invisible to them. I, myself, am becoming the ghost, wandering their hallways, trying to give them space."